UPDATE: I am now about 2 years off. doing much better than i was in this video but not fully healed. I’ve had lots of good comments, and lots of comments calling me a pussy. It’s pretty funny honestly. People have asked what i’m feeling in this video, if it’s just anxiety. It’s not, it’s severe pain and muscle tensing. I would feel what i thought was a hot knife travelling from my brain, down my neck, and it caused my entire body to tense up like there was acid or salt in my blood. The pressure and pain would travel down my neck into my back. I had about 5 of these episodes, this was the last one. I still have the feeling sometimes though.
I used benzos for 5-6 years, on and off. Not knowing how much i was damaging myself. I reinstated 3 different times, and cold turkeyed twice. This video is my second cold turkey after my third reinstatement. I have many other videos documenting my withdrawal process. It has been hell, i’ve been to the darkest places of my mind and physical pain. But I push on, and won’t give up, for my daughter. I love you Kyrie!